Habitats include secluded apartments with physical media, found footage, and a working projector. Can also be found in front of screens or behind cameras. Subsists on a diet of Chris Marker, Abel Ferrara, late-era Ozu, 80’s anime, revisionist westerns, and Claire Denis. Enjoys coffee, rainy days, biology, people’s faces, Soviet history, music, and food.
What's the absolutely necessary ingredient to be a good actor/director/screenplayer?
This is funny because I'm not very familiar with identifying as a director, let alone a "good" one. Still, I think the unifying element here is the idea of artistic pursuit. I feel like there's a disconnect in the term because the short film that I made, Burnt by the Sun, feels more like an art project than it did a film I directed. But the most important ingredient would be inspiration; I sought to create something, a short film that would screen at the Other Cinema in San Francisco (as part of Craig Baldwin's NEW New Experimental Works), and I really wanted to make something unique and special. Until then, I had made numerous collage narratives, piecing together archival footage, some from my personal archives and others from different shows and movie documentaries, but I wanted to make something that was more personal and derived or comprised of/ from the original footage. In doing this, I made very vague yet specific parameters to follow, I wanted to primarily shoot on film, and if there were shots or scenes borrowed from other sources, they would have to be from my personal archives of 8 & 16mm or synced from its source to a filmic source. Inspiration might sound like a cliche, but its what moved me from shuffling my feet and saying, ", Well, it would be cool to make a movie, but I don't know if I can do it," or "Gee, I'd like to direct a movie, but I don't know if I can do it..." to actually doing it. I overcame that hurdle because I realized that I could do it on my terms.
First and last cinematographic crush?
Well, I like the phrasing...I think. Plenty of crushes, but I think I actually fell in love with Liv Ullmann, Bibi Anderson, and the Bergman stock company because of Sven Nykvist's cinematography; there hasn't been another dp who knows just how much currency there is in a human face. The most recent crush would be the work of Claire Denis. Anyone cast in a Claire Denis movie is going to look gorgeous; never have I seen a director who intuitively democratizes beauty through their directing; if you've been in one of her movies, it's probably the best you're ever going to look, just check out Isabelle Huppert in White Material, those olympian bodies and faces throughout Beau Travail, even that bozo Vincent Gallo looks amazing in Trouble Every Day.
How old you were when you decided you wanted to be an actor/director/screenplayer?
I'm always performing. Not in that "we're all playing a role, man," but I'm always doing bits, routines, impersonations, skits, or singing goofy songs; my poor partner is stuck with a constant one-man revue; it's always been like this since I was a kid, but if you told me to put any of my energy up on stage, I'd freeze up like a frightened turtle. I don't think I've ever made a decision to become a director or screenwriter, and the way I've assembled my movies barely conforms with the most liberal definition of the term "directing." I'm yet to write a screenplay, but I'm storyboarding my next sci-fi project Incubate. I guess within the past year or two, I decided to pursue filmmaking in my own anarchic, improvised way.
For you, a Film is...
Something that fascinates me and hopefully plays at twenty-four frames per second. All joking aside, there's a lot of "to-do" about what is and isn't a film, whether or not some movies are cinema, and so forth. Whether or not it's digital or film, I feel like, for me, a film is something that bewilders, astonishes, frightens, and excites me. I want to be convinced of an inconceivable reality; I want to see something I know isn't real but get caught up in the emotion as if it were happening before my eyes. A film is something that excites all of my senses.
What do you feel when you're acting/directing/writing?
So much of what I do comes from happy accidents and chance encounters; if I'm driving around with my camera and I pass by a creepy-looking decrepit house, I'll pull over and film it, then think to myself, ", Well, I guess my next movie will feature this fucked up house." There's plenty of footage like that in Burnt by the Sun, and at the moment, I'm thinking, "Alex, you know this isn't how movies are made," but what am I, on a shooting schedule? I know that if I ever work my way to a studio production or an indie shoot with a small crew, I can't dash off into the woods every time I see a bird or something that catches my eye, but I like the possibilities of the every day. There are occasions when I set up a scene with proper lighting, take a reading, block actors, and so forth, and when the film is shot, pulled, developed, dried, and projected, and you see it in that frame, it's a rush. I'm excited by the possibilities if I'm behind or in front of the camera. I recently acted in a student film for a friend of mine
from school, and I had a wonderful time; I got killed in the end, it's a recurring thing, and I get a kick out of it.
You can go to the Movies with an actor/director/screenplay that you
love. What kind of movie do you choose and with who are you're gonna watch it?
I'd easily got to see Pasolini's The Gospel According to St. Matthew with Abel Ferrara. I'm a huge fan of both of their works, and I think the only person who loves Pasolini more than me, is Abel Ferrara. I'm a huge supporter of his work, and I love him as a character; this guy is the real deal; watch his movies with the commentary track on; to borrow a phrase, he often evokes "it's better than the movie." Also, I think with his deviant catholicism and Italian heritage, it would be a moving experience, except he'd probably look at me and say, "Dig this movie, man, the fuck ya doin' sweatin' me about my shit? It's Pasolini. Show some respect, ya dig?"
Also, as weird as this may sound, given the guy and his personality, I feel like this could actually happen. I mean, not really, but you never know...
Audrey Hepburn used to say, "Nothing is Impossible," what do you think about it?
Well, Audrey Hepburn said it, so it must be true, right? It's funny because there's a framed portrait of Audrey Hepburn by the front door where I work; I jokingly refer to her as "Princess Audrey" because of her regal qualities. For the past nine or so years, I've been a film critic, and there's that saying, "Those who can't create art criticize art," and maybe that held me back; well, I can successfully critique and create art; I guess that means anything is impossible.
Can you live just off of your passion?
"Live" being the operative word, if I had infinite resources, money, and so forth, yes, you bet I could live solely on my passions. I'm never bored; I love writing, reading, shooting film, experimenting with my cameras, editing, and watching movies. Honestly, it would be a dream come true if I could live off of my passions.
What's more important, talent or luck?
One begets the other; if you're not talented, you won't be able to recognize luck when you're fortunate enough to get it. Gerry Fialka said in an interview, "Turn your breakdowns into breakthroughs," and that gets to a lot of what goes on in my filmmaking; happy accidents and dumb luck constitute a lot of the virtues in my work. Like when I tried to process expired Kodachrome, against the advice of some informed peers, I ended up with some wild and uncanny imagery.
You must go to a desert island, but you can bring with you just one movie...
Oh boy, only one; right now, it's a four-way tie between Olivier Assayas' Carlos, Beau Travail, The Shining, and Sans Soliel. The Shining is a movie I've seen countless times over the years and haven't tired of it, but I might go with Chris Marker's Sans Soleil; it's one of my all-time favorites because there's so much imagination and potential in the globe-trotting essay film format.
Have you ever accepted a part/ a movie to direct/ a script to write even
if you didn't like the project?
Not that I can think of; the only time I feel like I didn't like a project is when it was something I was making or in its final process. I'm almost tired of it or feel like I've loved it to death, that kind of feeling that you're Lenny from Of Mice and Men, and you're petting your pet mouse over and over until it's dead.
What's the best compliment you have received about your Job?
I asked Craig Baldwin how my short film did during its screening back in December of last year, and he said, "Great, packed house, went wild, Burnt by the Sun burned up the screen!" That was special for me to get accolades like that from a filmmaker I revered, let alone the very notion that he actually screened something that I made. I thought it would have been so much better if I could have flown out to San Francisco and seen it in person, but the timing of the holidays and living on the east coast made it nearly impossible. However, those words made me picture a packed house going wild, and I think that's more exciting than actually being there, but who am I kidding? I would have loved to be there, but I think I would have been too nervous about taking it in.
Are you satisfied with your career?
No, I want to do more, but I'm satisfied, more or less with what I've done. If I could make the transition to the point where my art is my means to make a living, that would be great, but I'm not doing this for money; the only dissatisfaction is that I can't devote more time to my career as a visual artist.
Do you have a good luck charm?
Nothing specific, like a totemic item or charm, but I'm extremely superstitious. If it can’t hurt you, why not avoid those cracks on the sidewalk, or walk around that ladder than under it? Maybe film is my good luck charm?
Which is the worst moment on set ?
I haven't shot on a set, but the worst thing I've experienced during a shooting on location or wherever is this weird hostility that occurs when people see someone with a camera. It's funny because we're constantly shooting videos on our phones, Snapchat, vlogging, and so on. I once had a woman call the police on me because I was getting a light reading on my camera as I walked down the road! I'm sure if I was an influencer, talking into my phone with a selfie stick, she'd have run out to be in the video!
How do you feel when a job you've been part of it's ending?
I've been a PA on some commercials, helped with plays, and acted in shorts, and it's always rewarding when you feel good about a project wrapping up. It's a warm-up to the anticipation of post-production and seeing the final product.
Have you ever lied to get a part/job?
Who hasn't? I wouldn't trust someone who didn't lie a little. I wouldn't tell a lie I couldn't back up with some credibility, less like lying and more like padding some numbers, a little embellishment.
If you should win an Oscar, your first thought would go to...
Like anyone, I've thought this over, and I think I would thank any and every artist who ever inspired me, plus my mum and dad.